Still here

The reason I've been quiet lately is, to be honest, that I have not felt that good and I do not want to spread negative spirit here. I want to write about positive things but only when I genuinely feel like it. 

Exactly a week ago, I felt pretty lost and confused with myself and my plans for the future. Luckily, I managed to clear my head, after stress caused by a upcoming exam released, and I feel much better about everything right now :). It's scary how much stress can do towards your joy of life. I have felt great and really optimistic since the exam was over:)

My days have pretty much consisted of studying, friends, yoga and some partying for the past weeks - nothing to complain, I love fall and routines. Last weekend I spent with friends <3, the past one mostly with mom (we did a day trip to Estonia;), and a walk with Jenni yesterday, in Espoo. It was so nice to get some fresh air after spending few weeks in "the city", haha.

My courses for the fall started to roll last week and I feel pretty good about them. Some communications in both Swedish and Finnish, and mathematics. Each course I have now, is pretty intense, so I'm going to spend a lot of time on the lectures, which works well for me. I tend to be pretty lazy if there are no contact lessons…;)

I have also done a lot of thinking what comes to the future. I realized that I can only do my best and see where that carries me. Since 14 years old, my biggest dream has been to take a exchange year to California. Last week I had a feeling this dream might not ever come true, due to policies our uni have set, thus the frustration I experienced. However, lately I've realized that my dreams and obsession towards the exchange year might have slightly changed. I still dream of living abroad and in California, but I see other available options as well, than doing a regular exchange program. Right now I have no idea, if my plans are going to come true or not, but I know that I am not going to settle.

Few weeks ago, I also realized that I don't have to wait forever for a major chance to come by to fulfill my dreams of living in New York. I decided that I want to go there as soon as possible and for me that is next summer. So, I will spend my next summer in the city of my dreams. I may not be able to do "proper" work there but I trust that things tend to solve way or another. All this gives me so much more motivation to study hard until May. :)

Reason for motivation this week: upcoming weekend trip to Copenhagen on Friday! 

Life is good :)